I took away his hand that was squeezing my face, looked at him, and said in a calm voice, “Pei Hao, let’s break up.”
I don’t know if he could see my determined eyes in the dark room.
Pei Hao visibly gasped and then asked with a puzzled expression, “Why?”
Don’t you know why? I smiled inwardly with bitterness. Pei Hao, are you a great actor, or do you have a low IQ? Are you still pretending to be innocent and asking me why?
“There is no why,” I said indifferently. “We are not suitable.”
“What’s the matter with you?” Pei Hao stood up and gave me a confused look. He thought for a while and then suddenly slapped his leg hard as if suddenly realizing. “It’s because I jumped into the sea to catch Fu Yan first, right? So that’s why you haven’t talked to me much these days?”
I didn’t answer. Wasn’t it obvious?
The man who had spent time with me the night before became someone else’s hero the next day, and that other person was still the white moonlight he had been thinking about for the last five years. In five years, I have finally realized the truth. Words can be more beautiful and sweeter than honey. Actions, however, are the sharp-edged guns that penetrate these sugar-coated shells and directly peel away the emotions that are buried deepest in everyone’s heart, laying them bare.
“Xiao Xi, I thought you were on the motorboat in front of me that day. I didn’t know the person who collided with him was you.” Pei Hao grabbed my hand, held it in his, and interlocked our fingers. Then he explained, “As soon as Fu Yan told me it was you who ran into him under the water, I turned to look for you. I swear, I really didn’t know it was you!”
Well, it happened anyway. You can’t say in front of me that you saw both of us fall together in the water and couldn’t help saving him instead of me.
After all, I am the tasteless food, but it’s a pity to give it up.
What does it mean if you really didn’t know that I fell into the water that day? Both of us were in front of you at the same time. This explains that you were paying attention to him, caring about him, and your eyes were following him. You see, we both got on the motorboat almost at the same time. You said you knew where Fu Yan was and what happened to him, but you didn’t even know which motorboat I was on.
You can yell Fu Yan’s name, jump into the sea to save him, and even admit to my face that you like Fu Yan, but you can’t try to deceive me and say you care about me after all this.
I frowned and didn’t say anything. I was too lazy to argue with him.
Seeing that I didn’t speak, Pei Hao leaned down, lowered his head, and gently kissed my forehead. He whispered in my ear, “Xiao Xi, it’s my fault that I didn’t see you fall into the sea, I admit it. Don’t make trouble, ok?”
I pushed him away and shook my head, “I’m not making trouble; I’m serious.”
This time, I didn’t cry or make trouble. I was rational, calm, and restrained. We were all adults. I hoped we could have a mature conversation, break up peacefully, and part without hard feelings.
I don’t know if my calm attitude stimulated Pei Hao. He held my hand tighter, which made my bones ache. Pei Hao looked down at me. His black pupils were bottomless, making me unable to see the hidden emotions within. After a few minutes, he slowly uttered a few words. “I don’t agree.”
I was exhausted. I didn’t think our breakup would have much of an impact on Pei Hao. He didn’t have to act as if he liked me, and he was not auditioning for a role.
We stared at each other with an inexplicable breathless gaze in the dark night. We were both angry, and neither wanted to humble the other in this matter.
After a long time, I sighed and said: “I didn’t ask for your permission …”
Before I could speak, Pei Hao’s kiss smashed down like a storm. I tilted my head, and he chased after me. He pressed my hands, and I couldn’t move, so I clenched my teeth. He pinched my waist hard. I couldn’t help groaning. He pushed his tongue into my mouth, and I bit it. His tongue must have been painful, and soon I tasted blood in my mouth. His tongue was bleeding from my bite.
Pei Hao withdrew from my mouth, licked his upper lip with his tongue, and raised the corner of his mouth. After a few seconds, he kissed me again.
Usually, I’m not strong enough to be his opponent. With a lame leg, I was even weaker. That day, the kiss took too long, and no matter how much I struggled, Pei Hao never let go. He might have felt that he could stop my words about breaking up by blocking my mouth.
Later, I fell asleep in a daze, and I vaguely remembered that Pei Hao was holding me with his chin on my head and murmured while fiddling with my hair, “Xiao Xi, don’t make trouble tomorrow.”
At the end of that night, Pei Hao didn’t agree to break up, but it was all the same to me. At the moment I said it, or at the moment he had jumped into the sea to save Fu Yan, we had already broken up.
[1st floor] Rui Xiao Zhi: It’s time to abuse the scum. Please don’t pull me. I’m going to set off firecrackers (yeah.jpg)
[2nd floor] Ken Chuang: If I were a scumbag, I would also say I didn’t know Xiao Xi had fallen into the water. Now, Xiao Xi, let me tell you that men lie one after another, and they will refuse to admit it until the last minute. You can’t believe the lies of scum A. Break up, break up, break up quickly!
[3rd floor] Lan Tian Kindergarten: I agree with upstairs. I don’t believe scum A didn’t see Xiao Xi falling into the sea. All his reasons are merely excuses.
[9th floor] You are Xiao Gua Pi: Ah, Xiao Xi actually gave a name to scum A. I’m not happy ಠ╭╮ಠ
[10th floor] I don’t have a half moon: What does Pei Hao mean? Since the free babysitter who has been at home for many years is leaving, is he finally a little reluctant to give up?
[16th floor] Take me to Fei: Well, am I the only one who thinks Pei Hao really didn’t know that Xiao Xi had fallen into the sea? (rubbing hands.jpg)
[17th floor] TLB_ave: That’s right upstairs; you’re the only one.
[18th floor] Take me to Fei: Everything we’re reading now is from Xiao Xi’s point of view. Will it be different to see it from Pei Hao’s perspective? What’s more, in this chapter, how Xiao Xi describes Pei Hao’s reaction, it feels like he cares a little about Xiao Xi.
[19th floor] Shimmerのroot: Slag gong cares about a fart. He is just afraid Xiao Xi will leave, and nobody will treat him well. Noone will be his spare tire for the white moonlight, haha
[20th floor] A corrupt female: What’s going on upstairs, Take me to Fei? Is this the scum A’s second alias?
[OP] Registered a random number. Posting time: 2017-01-23 22:50:30
Everyone, don’t make noise. Can’t you just read the posts happily? (ʘ ʘ!)
The Chinese New Year is coming in a few days. Is everyone on holiday? How are you going to celebrate the New Year?
[1st floor] Late stage of procrastination: Students say they have already been on vacation for a long time (happy.jpg)
[2nd floor] Nine turns once: We have to go to the hospital to work overtime on the New Year’s Day 눈_눈
[3rd floor] AndyKK: The white angel upstairs, who is Xiao Xi going to spend the Chinese New Year with this year?
[4th floor] Wu Xiao Yu: I really want to bring Xiao Xi to my house for the New Year!