[OP] Registered a random number. Posting time: 2017-02-07 14:11:00
I regret mentioning that Pei Hao is a game anchor. I hope people will stop sending private messages asking me if so-and-so is Pei Hao. I won’t answer, and I don’t want this post to implicate outsiders.
[1st floor] Open sunflower: Ok, Xiao Xi, what you say is correct (cute.jpg)
[2nd floor] Monk Ping’s Dharma name is Hua Jia: Xiao Xi has spoken; we should stop guessing; it’s time to disperse
[3rd floor] Bai Xi Xi’s squirrel: We’ll be obedient; don’t forget to update, ah (anxious.jpg)
[OP] Registered a random number. Posting time: 2017-02-10 23:07:34
Pei Hao never showed up in the next few days. I was very busy because a project I was involved in was coming to an end, so that week I worked overtime until 10 pm every day and never had time to think about him.
There were lots of things to discuss with the team at work, and as I had to be present, I had to take a taxi to and from work every day. Our company had a small room with two beds which was supposed to be a rest room for colleagues who wanted to take a nap, but it was actually for people who worked overtime (hey, in socialism, capitalists squeeze us dry ( > ﹏<.)).
I found it troublesome to drag my hurt legs, so a few days before the exhibit, I simply packed up and moved to the company. I was also eating takeaway at home, so what was the difference, anyway? The day before the exhibit, our team worked overtime until 1 am. I was especially worried about my part, so I checked everything again before leaving and didn’t go to sleep until 3 am.
I forgot to close the window while sleeping, and when the colleague called me the next day, I felt hot and groggy. My colleague touched my forehead and was startled by the heat, so we rushed to the hospital. Everyone had jobs, so nobody could take care of me in the hospital all the time. I was lying in bed in a daze, and my colleague who bought me breakfast comforted me by saying it was all right, he called my brother, and he would arrive soon.
“Brother? Which brother?” I had no idea.
“When you were drunk last time, he came to pick you up.” My colleague looked at me with a smile and said, “Then we gave our contact information to each other, and he said to call him for anything.”
“….” I had nothing to say. Not afraid of god-like opponents, but afraid of pig-like teammates.
After breakfast, I told my colleague to go back to the company to handle my part in the exhibition. At this time, Pei Hao also arrived in a hurry bringing a bunch of food.
The colleague sighed, “I noticed last time, you brothers have a really good relationship.”
I smiled awkwardly, waved to my colleague Zhu, and urged him to hurry back to the company.
After my colleague left, Pei Hao sat by my bed, reached out and touched my forehead, frowned, and asked, “Why are you burning like this?”
As he got closer to me, I realized he looked disheveled. He had a thick stubble, his complexion was bluish, and as soon as he reached out, I felt a strong smell of wine. He didn’t have the usual spirited look at all.
I frowned, turned my head away, and said calmly, “Take your hands away; you smell strongly of alcohol.”
Pei Hao hurriedly retracted his hands, sniffed his cuffs, and muttered to himself, “I changed my clothes before going out.”
“I didn’t want to call you here. My colleague doesn’t know about the two of us,” I said with a blank face. “Go back.”
“No,” Pei Hao said firmly. “Are you going to ask Da Bai to take off from work to accompany you again, or will you wait alone for the IV drip to finish?”
I looked at the three bottles of hanging drip, and I estimated that it could take a few hours. When it was the time to change the drip, if I didn’t pay attention and fell asleep, the blood would flow backward after the infusion.
Da Bai was on a business trip to another city, so where could I even find him? One’s biggest fear outside is getting sick, and now it seems that I had to rely on Pei Hao to guard me.
Seeing that I didn’t refute him, Pei Hao lowered his head and asked me softly, “Do you want to eat?”
I shook my head.
“Then go to sleep and rest for a while.” Pei Hao held the hand with the infusion with one hand as if he were distressed. “Your hand is so cold, I’ll cover it.”
I didn’t want to have any intimate contact with him, so I pulled my hand back with all my strength, which moved the needle stuck in the flesh, causing me to wince in pain.
“Ok, it’s up to you.” Pei Hao was afraid I would move the needle again, so he didn’t touch me anymore.
“Go to sleep.” Pei Hao helped me tuck the edges of the quilt and then sat on the bed staring at me as if he were afraid I would disappear in the next second.
I was a little overwhelmed by his eager gaze, so I turned my head away from him and closed my eyes pretending to be asleep.
At some point, I really fell asleep. By noon, the drip was over, and Pei Hao wanted to feed me lunch.
I insisted on eating alone, so he had to sit quietly and watch me eat.
While I was eating, he answered the phone, and the other voice sounded like Brother Egg.
“I’m in the hospital with Xiao Xi.” Pei Hao couldn’t help but smile.
Someone said a few words, but Pei Hao didn’t care. “Come here and help me take care of Xiao Xi. I’ll go home and get something.”
After I finished my meal, Brother Egg arrived. As soon as he entered through the door, he slapped Pei Hao on the shoulder and said, “Finally, you are finally like a man!”
Pei Hao ignored him, asked him to be quiet, and then checked again the temperature on my forehead before going out.
After Pei Hao left, Brother Egg kept describing how stupid Pei Hao was these days. “Drank home alone; didn’t go to class; I couldn’t get through his phone, and he wouldn’t open the door when I knocked. His parents were anxious and told me to just smash the door.”
“When I went in, Pei Hao was sleeping on the living room floor, surrounded by wine bottles, and the room was reeking of wine. When he got up, he told me to leave, and when I tried to pull him, he pushed me away. I almost got into a fight with him.”
“I told Fu Yan to go find him, and he just ignored him.” Brother Egg shook his head with sadness. “His parents were ready to come.”
“It was still you. He cleaned up as soon as you called.” Brother Egg looked at me with a pretense of being at ease.
“I didn’t call him.” I gulped, not knowing how to explain it to Brother Egg.
“It doesn’t matter. He only listens to you now.” Brother Egg thought for a while, then looked at me seriously and said. “I’ve known Pei Hao for so many years, and I’ve never seen him like this before. I don’t know if Pei Hao had feelings for you before, but now I understand, he really loves you.”
I understood Brother Egg’s need to speak for Pei Hao. After all, they had been friends for so many years, it was important to say a few good words to help him.
Maybe Pei Hao really didn’t want to break up with me. After being with one person for five years, everything one does will have the shadow of the other person. Nobody can get used to suddenly being apart.
But I could still distinguish between love and habit. In the past, Pei Hao treated Yan caringly and was hot and cold with me. So why trust him when he now suddenly said he loved me?
I listened quietly, without any fluctuations in my heart, and said indifferently. “Brother Egg, some things can’t be repeated. I completely gave up on him. Let’s just put it this way: it’s absolutely impossible between him and me.”
“Don’t, don’t,” Brother Egg waved his hands in a hurry. “You are angry now. Don’t say such things lightly.”
I explained it too many times, so I now felt a little tired. I sighed, “I’m not angry. I just gave up.”
Without looking at me, Brother Egg whispered. “Anyway, I don’t think Pei Hao will let go easily this time…”
As soon as Pei Hao came back, Brother Egg left. Pei Hao changed his clothes and shaved his beard. He might have taken a shower because the alcohol smell on his body disappeared. He looked a lot more energetic than in the morning. He was afraid I would be bored, so he brought an iPad and a few books, saying I didn’t want to see him read them to me.
“Why didn’t I know you were so good at taking care of people before?” I couldn’t help sneering at him.
Pei Hao paused for a moment, lowered his eyes, and said hoarsely. “Xiao Xi, I’m sorry. I’ve been thinking a lot these days. I used to be a jerk and didn’t know how to cherish you, so you had to leave me.”
“But can you give me another chance?” Pei Hao looked up at me with tearful eyes and said, “I promise, I will only love you from now on. I will treat you well and take good care of you. We will come out to the family, go abroad to get a marriage certificate, and if you want a child, we can adopt one…”
After we broke up, I found out Pei Hao was quite good at talking and was rather deceitful.
Coming out, getting married, adopting a child… what a tantalizing vision. It sounded so real. Yes, this used to be the life I most desired and envied once. I had Pei Hao in all my life plans, and I had depicted a bright future with Pei Hao over and over again in my mind. Then, with his strong love for another person and his dispensable attitude towards me, he tore the blueprint I had drawn to shreds piece by piece. When my heart was still beating for him, he poured a basin of cold water on me, extinguishing all my expectations and feelings for him.
It is said that a broken mirror is hard to reunite, and broken things cannot be put back together. I don’t know how he can restore a heart that has been burned to ashes.
“Pei Hao, don’t say you love me. You are wrong,” I interrupted him coldly. “I can’t stand it.”
“Xiao Xi…” Pei Hao suffocated, gritted his teeth, and said with a heavy expression, “I admit, I loved him before, and I didn’t cherish you and ignored you for two years before I fell in love with you. But in the next few years, I loved you more and more. Maybe I was too naive to let you feel my love.”
Pei Hao looked at me solemnly, “Xiao Xi, I only love you now.”
“Pei Hao, you don’t understand love at all.” I looked at him indifferently. “Love can’t be proven with sweet words. You can’t be good to me when you’re happy and ignore me when you’re not. There is a limit to love. My love for you has long been exhausted by you. To put it simply, I don’t love you anymore. Your vows are all in vain, and I take your words today as a fart.”
Pei Hao looked at me dejectedly and said half a second later, “Ok, then I’ll prove it to you with time and actions.”
[1st floor] Tofu soup: Xiao Xi, promise me, torture Pei Hao to death, and then find a rich and handsome man again!
[2nd floor] I am not happy with my old man: What love or no love, just take it as nonsense. Do you expect someone who has loved his white moonlight for five years to suddenly come and love you? Life is too short, don’t overthink it.
[3rd floor] Julie-rise: My poor Xiao Xi. You have a fever, have to work overtime, and have to fight a scumbag (crying.jpg)
[12th floor] Face the wall and reflect: I don’t know what to say … Hey, then say Xiao Xi, can you update every day? (desire.jpg)
[13th floor] shui a sui: Pei Hao really doesn’t understand love. He pampers you when he’s happy and ignores you when he’s unhappy. He’s very selfish and superficial.
Thanks for the update!! ?
Thank you for coming back ??
Dont give in and hold on as long as you can xiao xi!!
Thanks for the update!
Thank you so much for the update. I’m really looking forward.
Ahhh~ It always pains me when I read novels where MCs finally give up. To be honest, I want these kind of novels to end with MC being better than ever on their own… or that it would take a lot of time before getting back together.