[OP] Registered a random number. Posting time: 2017-02-06 22:31:09
While sitting idly at home with a plaster cast, I tried to catch up with all the TV dramas I never had time to watch before, but probably because of a bad mood, I found it hard to concentrate and gave up after only a few episodes.
I also tried to play games. In the past five years with Pei Hao, we spent a lot of time playing games together. As soon as I logged into the game, I got bombarded with messages from Pei Hao accumulated during the last few days. At first, he kept asking me where I was. Then, he started crying that he was wrong and asking me to forgive him. He only sent two or three of these crying ones a day, probably fearing that I would block his game account.
He could really make the best use of every means to contact me.
I logged out of the game account, re-logged into a separate one, and quit after a few rounds of being cheated by my teammates. Some people asked me what were Pei Hao’s advantages. Why did I like him so much? Was it because he was good at playing games? He was really good at basketball. When playing one-on-one with him, I always lost. When I teamed up with him, I was always safe. Winning or losing was not important. Anyway, he excelled at all.
When he had time, he would stream a few games live, and there were always fans in his chatroom. Pei Hao played that game with me, and then I practiced on my own to have a common topic with him. Since then, I haven’t played that game again.
To remove a person, including all the memories related to him, one should be ruthless and thorough to erase all their traces.
On the weekend, Da Bai went with me to the hospital for my follow-up appointment. The doctor had a quick look and prescribed some medicine. He said the bones were well-connected, and as long as I didn’t fall, I could recover in a month. After resting at home for a week, when walking with crutches, my feet wouldn’t hurt as much as they did at the beginning. Da Bai was finally relieved.
I didn’t want to eat take-out anymore, so I asked Da Bai to take me out to dinner. Seeing that I was suffocating, Da Bai took me to a famous hot pot restaurant. There was a cute kid at the next table who kept looking at the cast on my feet. While his mother went to the bathroom, he ran over to ask me if I was an armored warrior. I told him I was not a warrior, but my leg was injured.
He bent down and blew a few times on my leg, saying, “Brother, I’ll give you strength, so you won’t be in pain.”
I patted his head with a smile. I suddenly thought there were so many lovely people and things in this world. Why have I been stuck in a world called Pei Hao for five years? Love was precious, but life was more valuable, so I might as well start over by myself.
It was already 9 pm when we got home from dinner. Da Bai and I came out of the elevator and saw a vague figure squatting at the door of my house. I was startled at first, but when I got closer, I saw it was Pei Hao.
“Xiao Xi…” When he saw me, Pei Hao immediately came up to me. He looked at me eagerly and said, “Are you angry?”
What was wrong with him? He still didn’t understand that it wasn’t just a matter of bowing his head and admitting his mistake. I was so disappointed that I still had some traces of affection for him.
I pretended not to see him, walked past him, and grabbed my key. Pei Hao suddenly hugged me from behind, leaned his head on my shoulder, and whispered my name.
“Uh…” Da Bai scratched his head and said with embarrassment, “I’ll leave now, you guys can talk,” and then he ran into the elevator like a gust of wind.
The hand I used to take out the key stopped in midair while I asked Pei Hao, “How did you find this place?”
“I…” Pei Hao hesitated for a moment but still told the truth. “I had Da Bai followed.”
I reached out to remove his hands from mine and said with a sarcastic smile, “Are you going to follow me and monitor my phone next?”
“No…” Pei Hao hugged me tighter and said in a wounded tone, “You refused to see me, so I had to find a way to see you.”
I said coldly, “How many times do you want me to say, I …”
“Xiao Xi,” Pei Hao interrupted me and turned my body to face him. Through the dim light in the corridor, I saw his unshaven face, looking a little haggard.
Pei Hao looked at me seriously and said, “What you cared about, what I didn’t do well, what you were dissatisfied with, we will clear it up today. I will change, ok?”
I stared at him and shook my head. I thought I had made it all clear before.
“I’m sorry, Xiao Xi. Brother Egg said a few days ago that you were crying in the sea that day.” Pei Hao reached out to touch my face and said in a hoarse voice, “but you can’t keep it all in your heart. I won’t know until you say it. I’d rather you be angry with me.”
“Have I never said it? I also stayed in a hotel for a few days once.” My eyes darkened, and a mocking smile appeared on the corner of my mouth. “And what did you do? Did you ever call me during the days I was away?”
“Xiao Xi, Xiao Xi, it was my fault I didn’t contact you that time. I’m really sorry,” Pei Hao said in a hurry, “but at that time we had a good meal. I never understood why you lost your temper.”
Pei Hao said in a calmer tone, “And I knew at the time you didn’t really want to break up…”
“Yeah, anyway, I can’t compare to Fu Yan, I’m not worthy of your coaxing.” I leaned against the wall weakly, feeling a little tired of standing and talking like this.
Pei Hao quickly supported me, grabbed my key, opened the door, and carried me to the living room couch. He went to close the door, came back, and explained softly. “No, Xiao Xi.”
“I’ve never told you before that Fu Yan had a very long scar on his back. In junior high school, while going home one day we were both attacked. I could have just paid the money, but I had to fight with them. Who knew that one of them slashed at me with a knife. As a result, he helped me block it, was injured, and lost a lot of blood. If it weren’t for my impulsiveness at the time, he could have avoided the knife. I always felt I owed him, so I treated him better than others.”
“Fu Yan doesn’t think it’s my fault, and he doesn’t want me to feel bad about him, so he never mentioned it and said we should not mention it to others either. It’s been a long time so I never said anything. Even brother Egg didn’t know about this.”
“Now I think I should have told you about this earlier to avoid misunderstandings.”
I did see the scar on Fu Yan’s back on the island. It was very long. Although the lines have faded after so many years, I could imagine his pain back then.
Pei Hao was really lucky.
“So what?” I stared straight into Pei Hao’s eyes and asked, “Dare to say you haven’t loved him? Dare to say I was more important than him in the past five years?”
Pei Hao was stunned. After a long time, he came back to his senses and said something in a low voice. I didn’t hear it clearly, but he had a look of shame on his face.
Nevermind. Just what was I insisting on asking? It didn’t matter whether he loved me or not. Anyway, my relationship with him was over.
“You should go.” I pointed at the door and said tiredly, “I’m going to sleep.”
“Xiao Xi…” Pei Hao looked at me nervously and said, “I may have liked him before. I don’t know whether it was like or appreciation. But now I know that I love you. I’ve been thinking about you all the time since you left. I can’t be with anyone else and can’t accept you being with another person. You can’t leave me alone.”
Pei Hao grabbed my hand, stared at me with light in his eyes, and whispered in my ear, “I love you, Xiao Xi. I love you.”
I pulled my fingers out of his hands one by one and muttered, “Pei Hao, you could have said this for five years, but you chose to say it now.”
Pei Hao’s eyes dimmed, and he looked at me blankly.
I smiled. “You didn’t realize you’ve never said the words ‘I love you’ to me in the past five years, did you?”
Great, every time I saw Pei Hao, I ended up feeling guilty.
Before Pei Hao could reply, I said lightly again, “Then let me tell you, it’s too late now. I don’t love you anymore.”
Pei Hao suddenly pressed himself against me, so strong that my bones hurt a little. He held the back of my head and kissed me forcefully. I pushed him away, and he kissed me again. We struggled for a few minutes, and I finally slapped him hard.
When Pei Hao raised his head again, the corners of his eyes were red, and there was a white mist in them.
“Xiao Xi…” Pei Hao opened his mouth, and his voice trembled.
I took a few breaths, pointed at the door again, and said word by word, “I don’t want to see you. Please go.”
Pei Hao blinked, and a small tear slipped down. It was the first time I saw Pei Hao cry in all these years. Funny enough, the tears were for me. My heart seemed to be pierced by something, and it hurt a bit. Unbelievable, such a proud Pei Hao, such a calm Pei Hao, could cry for me.
I pointed at him excitedly and yelled, “Go!”
Pei Hao opened his mouth tremblingly without making a sound. After a while, he walked out in a trance.
With a splitting headache, I lay on the sofa wearily and closed my eyes.
The reason I was so excited was that when I saw him in tears, I felt pain and was afraid that if I saw him crying and begging me to forgive him for just a moment longer, I would soften my heart.
Fortunately, I didn’t expose my weakness, so he left. I thought my last slap really hit him, and he wouldn’t come again.
[1st floor] jiao jiao pony: No, he will come back to Xiao Xi in the future (whispering.jpg)
[2nd floor] A great painter: I’m speechless about scum Pei. After living together for so many years, he doesn’t know whom he loves. Maybe Xiao Xi, after you made up with him, he will say sorry Xiao Xi, I realized that my true love is Fu Yan… so you can’t forgive him, you know that (serious face.jpg)
[3rd floor] Timing: People like scum Pei actually have fans. When I think about it, my heart is trembling. All the handsome boys and girls who are watching live game streaming, pay attention and don’t give money to scumbags.
[4th floor] Julie-rise: Do you all want to know what kind of game anchor Pei Hao is? I’m so curious!
[12th floor] I don’t know what lipstick to give: Xiao Xi, you are so soft-hearted that I ate ten fried chicken wings in one go!!
[13th floor] you are a small melon skin: Hahaha upstairs, don’t make excuses for yourself!
[14th floor] Jiang Si Fen: Hey, scumbags are the best at crying and begging for forgiveness. Once you forgive them, they’ll repeat the same mistakes… If the OP becomes soft and then suffers again, don’t make another post to complain. We don’t want to read it.
[15th floor] Barcelona, you won, ah: You can’t say that. There are indeed examples of scumbags turning into loyal dogs. I have them around me, but the probability is really low.
[23rd floor] covered in oil: Damn it, why do I think I’ve watched Pei Hao’s game live stream? Amateur, not many fans, handsome. According to the timeline, the streamer was offline the very same months Xiao Xi broke up with him!! My God, let me be quiet, I can’t believe the male God and Pei Hao are the same!! Somebody tell me they’re not!
[24th floor] Eva-reda: Upstairs, please private message me the name of the streamer!
[25th floor] Abi: Asking the same
[31st floor] Guo doesn’t celebrate humiliation: ＝＝ Calm down everyone, there are too many amateur male game streamers, it’s normal to stop streaming for a few months every now and then. And Xiao Xi definitely doesn’t want people to disturb their lives. Let’s read the post and not make trouble.